I’ve shared my experience with cycles & patterns before, but this particular one has become more noticeable recently. Here’s what I’ve found… I run, run, run for weeks at a time, trying to accomplish so many things at once. I put constant pressure on myself to do so many things and do them well. Then, eventually, I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus and feel completely exhausted and stressed out.
Well, a couple of weeks ago, I hit that point, again. Thankfully, my counselor was available for a call when it happened. She pointed out what I wasn’t willing to see for myself (this exact pattern). Deep down I knew it was happening, but I didn’t let myself acknowledge it. What I love about our conversations is that she doesn’t tell me what I need to do or how to do it. Instead, she has me figure it out for myself. She lead me through a guided meditation and immediately after, had me write down what came up during the meditation.
Part of what I wrote down was to slow down, breathe and practice deep stretching. I left work early that day, went home, laid in bed and spent hours reading. That was the most time I had rested in over a month. I slept for almost 11 hours that night. I woke up feeling so much better, but I knew that wouldn’t be enough.
Who knew, less than a week later, the universe would force me to take the time to slow down. Anyone that knows me knows I’m very social. I really thought I would struggle with this quarantine! We’re over a week in and I have to say, I couldn’t be happier. I lost my main source of income, something that would usually send me into a panic, but it has actually forced me to get creative. I’m doing what I love in new ways and it is an exacting new adventure!
“And the people stayed home. And read books, and listened, and rested, and exercised, and made art, and played games, and learned new ways of being, and were still. And listened more deeply. Some meditated, some prayed, some danced. Some met their shadows. And the people began to think differently.
And the people healed. And, in the absence of people living in ignorant, dangerous, mindless, and heartless ways, the earth began to heal.
And when the danger passed, and the people joined together again, they grieved their losses, and made new choices, and dreamed new images, and created new ways to live and heal the earth fully, as they had been healed.”-Kitty O’Meara
What are you doing to slow down and reconnect? Read my next post to see how I’ve been taking advantage of this down time.